“I am the sea and nobody owns me.”
I’m delirious and nothing hurts.
I think the biggest question we need to ask ourselves is if I need a psych eval or not
“My life is a struggle between my need for acceptance, my fear of rejection, and a desire to not care at all.”
I just had someone end their friendship with me over something really fucking stupid.
They were one of my closest and longest friends, someone who I called my sister. Apparently, once I’m not useful to someone they just drop me like it’s hot. I feel bewildered, I feel disheartened, I feel almost betrayed.
I’m going to say shit that I regret if I keep going. But fuck that. Fuck that. I have dealt with enough shit in my actual family, and I thought I wouldn’t have to deal with that in my chosen family. Apparently not. I guess it helps being emotionally stunted in these situations.
So that’s a thing. Sorry to rant but I had to tell someone.
About to go on a work binge!
The good news: I’m about to get so much money from all of my overtime.
The bad news: I’ll have worked enough to get a lot of overtime.
…I’ll see y’all on the other side, I guess.
“I’ve become a living apology, I am sorry”
Too many emails…..too little sleep…..too much work…..dying.
I’m gonna drown in emails. And I worked 11 hours yesterday straight without a break. And I want to just sleep forever. Is that possible?